The Sin Lies in the Heart

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must i caress the wind or must i let the wind caress me?

[ must i take action or must i let nature take it’s own course. ]

i am charged with bullets that could burst through a shield of emotion but i have stored them away in my fanny pack, because the fire inside of me had simmered down to a spark before it extinguished itself.

the cataclysmic annihilation of the self has proved to be futile before, but is now enforced anyway, even in the face of chaos. my aura radiates a bruised purple and i am constantly fighting with the red and the blue to separate them.

how many casualties do you see? one? two? too many? don’t worry, i won’t burst yet. i am not blind, i understand that having simple faith in life and rain will clear away all sins but the sin lies not in the deeds but in the heart.

the heart? the heart is but an organ of chaos, an organ of mischief and madness- pumping out blood, a complicated concoction of something that represents both life and death. it’s pressure point is right at the centre of the palm, right where it should be. the centre of the circle of life- an organ of mischief and madness.

i am a tragic misfit, tired of being a misfit. the bullets vibrate in my fanny pack as i stand in the windy middle of nowhere. no shields required now. i can breathe because im a lone wolf and i can breathe because out here, the casualties are highly minimized.

i stand in the windy middle of nowhere, yet i cannot move. i am frozen like a popsicle to the ground and i wait for it to give way, and swallow me as a whole, i wait for me to hit rock bottom.

but until then-

must i caress the wind or must i let the wind caress me?

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[ i do not own the picture ]

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